Author: Erika Ginnis

Cardinal Grand Cross weekend in review

Erika Ginnis

So this has been a really intense weekend energetically has it not? How has it been for you?

I know that I have heard of people feeling like they are barely staying afloat; feeling like they are drowning. I have heard of people spending a lot of time in meditation. I have heard of insights being gained and realities shifting. I am guessing there are those who are blessedly just bopping along not even noticing that the house is up in the middle of a cyclone, and a lady just passed by the window and it seems as if any time now we will find ourselves well passed the boundaries of Kansas, firmly planted in OZ (and I don’t know about you but I am not even going to go look under the house for those ruby slippers). šŸ™‚

This was according to some the opening of the Lion’s gate. I read that the Lion’s gate is a yearly cycle, although this specific one has to do with ascension and moving into the higher levels of light. I may post more on that later. The other big thing though was the Cardinal Grand cross with everybody and his brother in the mix (planet wise) really stirring up the pot. I think these are parts of the same thing of course, with each accelerating the other.

Here is an except from something that was emailed to me by a friend. The Astrologer is named Susan Miller and can be found at the Astrology Zone. These are excepts from a longer article; but it was interesting and important information on the astrology, so I though I would share some of this here as well.

“Truths will be illuminated, secrets will be exposed, and any injustices will be corrected. Under this type of configuration, we cannot deny, ignore, or hide from certain realities, but that’s good, for only then can we be energized to make things better. The cardinal cross – like eclipses – often pushes us to either end of the spectrum. That means you may find events to be either very difficult or very thrilling. Either way you will know where you stand and you will be able to plan with a greater sense of certainty.”

“This month’s cardinal cross will include Pluto, Uranus, Jupiter, Saturn, Mercury, Mars, Venus, and the transiting moon in Cancer. That’s eight heavenly bodies! The only ones not involved will be the Sun, Neptune, and Mercury. That is a large degree of participation!

“Technically, in order to have a true cardinal cross, you need to have four squares and two oppositions. You would see a perfect square box with an X in the middle. That’s a grand cross. When the group of planets involved are all cardinal signs (Aries, Libra, Cancer, and Capricorn) you have a grand cardinal cross.
This month’s grand cardinal cross is extraordinary because it will have not four squares but ten, and not two oppositions but seven. Wow, as you see, this is a very intense cardinal cross. Looking ahead 500 years, I could not find another cardinal cross involving so many planets.

“Another remarkable feature of this cardinal cross is that each planet will be within five degrees of each another, and many will be in even tighter configuration, within a degree or so! Cardinal signs are VERY energetic and when they are found in very early degrees of zero to 1.5 degrees, like many of these planets will be, they epitomize the very life force. This is very powerful!
Furthermore – another point that astounded me – is that Mars will be at a very sensitive degree on August 6 and 7, unlocking the message of the June 26 lunar eclipse, or bringing more news to a situation that arose at that time.

“Squares are known to present obstacles, but they also help you move forward and even turn a corner. They are a necessary part of life, for they uproot us from our complacency and shake us into awareness. You may experience a big breakthrough or the final ending of a long and debilitating circumstance.

“Two particularly important planets to watch will be Saturn and Uranus, still standing approximately 180 degrees apart. Even though they had their last opposition on July 21, they are still very close. Saturn rules all that is traditional and conservative, and Uranus represents all that is new and revolutionary. As you see, these two planets are very different.

“These two began confronting each other on November 4, 2008. Since then, they have been engaging in combat, separating and retreating, engaging and now finally separating. They have not have had direct confrontation since 1965-1967, a time when society moved out of the roles and mood of the 1950’s into a much more modern time. In the USA the changes focused on the changing role of women and African Americans in our society. Often when we are participating in big change we are too busy to notice how massive things are shifting, but in hindsight it becomes clear.

“Certainly Saturn and Uranus have been keeping up the pressure to force us to decide what is valuable and to be preserved, and what is new and revolutionary and should be embraced to replace all that is outworn. As creatures of habit we tend to cling to what we know rather than try something new.”

“So in the coming week, if anything is weak and ready to break, it will. It will be obvious that the center will not hold – something has to change. Actually, that’s the good news, for extreme planetary energies like the one we are about to experience will soon display any defective parts in a relationship, project, certain investment deal, or other endeavor or part of life. Those outworn or faulty elements will either spin off quickly and be discarded, or demand fixing or advice very soon. If you were deprived of reward on any level, it may come to you now.

“Cardinal energy is not patient, so when the news its, it will demand you attend to it quickly with a sense of urgency. We all will have no choice but to act under such strong gale force winds, but let’s not forget that forceful, difficult aspects illuminate and clarify situations like none other. The universe will now take a strong hand in things to show us what we could not see for ourselves. Yet, as I have been saying, if you are with the wrong boss, the wrong sweetheart, the wrong investor, or in the wrong living situation (you name it – there are many possibilities), the cardinal cross may suddenly end that situation and help you get into a new one quickly. “

I know for myself I had bouts of internal tension at varying intervals. I have also had big shafts of light shining right through me into my world. I chose the path of coming home Friday night and doing some really chewy (the technical term :)) meditation and Theta healing on myself. I figure if this much stuff is up I might as well put it to good use and start some big ‘ol clearing. I meditate daily anyway as part of a spiritual practice that has been going on for 30 years now, but there are times when the call, or opportunity, of meditation feels like it has a capitol “M”. This was one of those weekends.

I mostly focused on looking at what my beliefs really are, and how are they effecting me today. Plus starting up an even more in depth conversation with the Universe about whether or not I am truly supported and please give me some signs of land thank-you-very-much. I got some of those signs, to my joy and relief; and so I am doing daily work to be right here right now and not jump into the potential future of what might or might not be (lions and tigers and bears oh my!).

I had a good “out-loud” conversation with God tonight, and it was strangely comforting. I normally do this quietly, but tonight out-loud seemed to be the way to go. I realized that there are levels of honesty and if I found it interesting that there can still be this desire to “look good” to God even where only my cats and I are physically present. I love that I can laugh at myself, it’s a way I grow. I can be truthful in the middle of being really silly, which is how it felt tonight saying all the things out-loud that had been running around in my brain, even if I “know” I am not supposed to be thinking/saying/pondering them. I am a teacher and I know better right? Well Thank the powers that be we all change and grow all the time.

I have decided once again though, that if we do indeed create our reality based on our beliefs, then that means that we really do get to do that very thing. Therefore in my reality I get to have a God(dess) that hears me and loves me and totally understands me and answers me no matter how I am feeling when I start the conversation.

This may seem like an odd thing to say but I find our ability to create new rules when the old ones go out the window, is pretty impressive. Such as the rule that I find popping up sometimes which says God only hears you and answers when your consciousness is up high enough and you are positive enough. Which is oddly reminiscent of replacing the idea of being “sinful” with being “negative”, but having it essential fill the same role. LOL. OK in some ways they are similar in that sin=missing the mark (it is a term that originally came from archery having to do with missing the mark, or coming up short) and being “negative” is simply another way to miss the mark of where we want to be; so that I suppose that is reasonable.

However I am going to keep the idea of the God/Universe who loves us and listens and responds even in our “broken times”; otherwise I am keeping myself from my source at the very times I most need to remember that connection. How often do we cut ourselves off at the times we need it most, waiting to be in a better place before we ask? It’s like cleaning the house before the house cleaner comes over, what’s the point? If God/the Universe is All and is everywhere present, then wouldn’t that mean it is right where we each are all the time; even in the times when we are twirling around in the winds of change?

I was reminded tonight (during my conversation) that things can only happen in the now they are happening in. Which means that I can ask all day for something to happen in the future (and I do believe it does get created energetically in the moment we put our attention on it) but it will take coming into that place in time that I now see as future for that darn thing to actually manifest! Which is to say that it is counterproductive to ask for something to happen next Monday and worry all week because it hasn’t happened yet; when indeed it’s something that can only actually happen on Monday!! Funny funny humans!

So once again I am brought to present time and to appreciating what I have in-this-moment, and when I hear that voice that says but… but… I go back to appreciating what I have in-this-moment (rinse and repeat); because often what I have in this moment is quite good; it’s the fear that something will be lost, or not gained l-a-t-e-r that often throws us all off kilter. The paradox is, the times I have been right in the middle of some kind of experience that I might want to label “yuck” (so technical I know) I am totally OK in the midst of it…and I have made it through.

I am finding so much juice in all of this, I have been listening more intently, really tuning into that guidance, not taking things for granted. This is a very good thing.

So how has your weekend been? Any insights gained?

(oh and by the way Mercury is going retrograde in a couple weeks…but I am thinking walk in the park after all this…waddya say?) šŸ™‚

Aloha and Blessings,
Erika

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Energetic Weather and a Solar Storm ~ Erika Ginnis

Erika Ginnis
Solar eruption of August 1 2010, Credit Nasa
Solar eruption of August 1 2010, Credit NASA

Sometimes it is oddly comforting to findĀ  out about physical manifestations of energetic processes! I realize that is a mouthful, but what it means is; that as I and many others have been observing and commenting about the energetic shifts taking place on a spiritual and evolutionary level, there are also physical representations of this phenomena.

Once such example is happening as I type this,Ā  which is the solar storm that has been taking place yesterday and today (August 3rd and 4th) due to the solar flare on August 1st.

New light, new energy, new things…

Good news is, there may be awesome northern lights for many people (probably not where I live, here in Hawaii as I am pretty far south) but definitely up where I used to live (Seattle area). I am curious how this will effect the electronics I know and love :). I do know that during one of my phone sessions today, we experienced quite a bit more oddness in cell reception. In fact we lost the call three times in one hour (which is a record for us).

There is a lot of new energy coming into us, and I find it bizarre and awesome that it is showing up as something as literal as the energy coming directly from the Sun. I dreamed something about the galactic center last night, didn’t bring much of it back but I know there is a lot of exchange energetically right now, and we are coming into a new alignment with a new level of power and energy. This is not trivial stuff, and I think people feel it and respond to it on a lot of levels.

I have been talking to a number of people who have been experiencing tremendous change, sometimes marked by depression, or feeling overwhelmed by changes, or by extra energy that they have absorbed without meaning to.Ā  I have also been talking to clients who have been moving through this experience and are starting to come out the other side of it (yay!) and are moving into greater expanded understanding about who they are and what they want to be and do.

One common theme seems to be: becoming more, or becoming larger. I was chatting to a friend the other day about her business, she was saying that she knew she had two choices, staying small or getting really big, and that there didn’t seem to be a lot of middle ground as far as size of her business went. She was dealing with the ideas and potential limits she placed on herself whenever she thought about expanding.

This was interesting to me because I have gotten the information (from meditations and also from a reading by someone else) over the last month (as I may have mentioned in earlier posts) that I am supposed to be expanding and getting my stuff out into the world more, “moving into my Goddess self” yikes! LOL

I was told I have been keeping myself, my visibility too small. Well fine, I moved to the middle of the Pacific ocean, but I guess that is no excuse. I am kidding a little here, but there are larger forces at work here, for all of us; or better to say AS all of us. We are all being asked on some level to make choices, and to become bigger, more…to move into another state of beingness.

Ok so I can relate to feeling a little intimidated by all of this; but in the midst of this here comes this Solar storm. What does that mean? Well we are being bombarded by way more waves/particles of energy. This is something that is true on a “psychic” level, but now we can actually see videos of this happening on a physical level as well.

Video of solar flare

The physical mirrors the energetic and the energetic mirrors the physical. Perhaps we can look at it also on an archetypal level as well, seeing this bursting forth and coming straight at us here on the planet, as being an energizing factor for our new evolution as a planet. The Light of the Sun literally breaking off and cascading toward and over and around us, giving us more potential energy to use in this transformation.

How are you going to use this energy? How are you responding to it?

Something that can come up when we feel ourselves drawn into a new arena is fear and our limitations. Sometimes we want to do something new or larger, and just the fact that we haven’t been doing it yet can stop us from even starting it; as if we need to have been DOING the new thing already in order to feel justified in doing it now! Seems silly when I write it down, but I am betting I am not the only one who has run into this concept.

So what is the answer? I think it is just to re-frame it.

Use what you have done as the evidence of what you CAN do, as opposed to the reason you can’t do itĀ  (“I can’t do this job because I have not done it yet, I have been too busy doing this other career and so don’t know how to do this new thing). What you HAVE done is your spring board for the new thing! Think of it like a brand new canvass, just waiting for the brush and the paint to create something new and exciting and beautiful.

You can also use the same process you used to do what you have already done (either spiritual or mundane) to do the next things; build upon what you have done, even if it feels really different.

Here is some additional information I saw today as I was working, in relation to us becoming larger. I saw the image of Self as spirit being like an over arching umbrella, and that we need to balance being within our creations and being above them.

We come into them to get them “all over us” in order to really feel them and visualize them and bring them into manifestation. That is great we dive right into the middle of what we are doing, merging with it, enlivening it. This is awesome, and part of the dance and the process. However what I was reminded of today, as I was doing a reading, is that we also will benefit from going up to that umbrella view; to go up above it all and remember that we are spirit, that we are not our creations.

Remember you are the spiritual being that is the energy that funds whatever you are creating, but you aren’t your creations; even if your creations are made of your energy.

In the same way that you are not your body, you are also not any project, or relationship or job, or even your evolutionary process. You are that which is experiencing it and creating it.

One of the techniques that I remembered again today was one that I think will help all of us in this new process. It is the process of commitment without attachment; or owning something %100 as spirit without absorbing it.

It is one way in which we separate from what we are doing %100 as spirit, and at the same time own our creations %100.

This may be challenging to conceptualize (and harder still to verbalize) but one way I was taught to do this was to imagine (most easily done from a place of quiet and meditation) two roses out in front of you, one representing your own personal energy and the other one representing the project or creation.

Take the roses and move them (in your minds eye) so that there is space between them and allow each to have the energy that belongs to it specifically; let it flow into each corresponding rose.

Imagine all of the project/creation energy that was present in your personal rose to flow back to the project; this allows us to have space from what we are creating giving us more perspective.

Imagine that your personal energy is flowing out the rose which represents the creation or project rose back into your personal rose; this allows space for the project without all the accompanying limitations that we might be bringing to it.

Then I would suggest to sit quietly and just get the concept that you are owning your creation %100 AS SPIRIT, while letting yourself be %100 ā€œseparateā€ from it at the same time.Ā  What this does is to remove attachment to and effort around your project or new endeavor. It allows your effortless energy as spirit to be free to flow. It helps remove limits that we may still hold, from our newly envisioned goals.

One thing that I have been struck with on this topic that I have been meditating on since it really hit home; was the idea that you do not have to be the BEST at something (ie perfect) to be good at it; or for it to be worthwhile. I started to wonder how many people are not doing/sharing their gifts and light and ideas because they judge it as “not-as-good-as” and so don’t do it at all? If I take that to the extreme it means there can only be one who is the “good one” at anything; and even if you are the ONE that is the BEST, there is so much energy going into keeping that place because that itself is so transitory! Plus it’s totally subjective! I am not saying to stop striving to be the best you can be at something, but there is a difference between having that as something you are inspired to do; and letting it stop you from doing all kinds of different things or new things.

This becomes more important as we move into new avenues of expression that may be entirely new for everyone since we are all evolving in so many ways.

All is one, even though we are all a variety of expressions of that One. Each time you let yourself move forward become larger greater, move into new territory, it’s like one of the flowers on the HUGE tree of US opens and blooms; each time a flower bursts open it stimulates more flowers to bloom.

One thing that I believe to be true is that we are all in a big period of change, call it a growth period if you like but it is a continuing experience, plus if the sun itself is part of the process, then that makes it even larger than we might have thought; exciting times these.

Aloha and Blessings ~Erika

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Chakra Q&A from Essential Mysteries

Erika Ginnis

I wanted to do this post because I have been corresponding with a lovely woman this last week who asked me a great question regarding my chapter on chakras (Essential Mysteries chapter 6); in the answering of it I realized that some other people might have similar questions so I wanted to post the conversation on here for everyone’s benefit.

Good morning, Ms. Ginnis,

I have a quick question on the chapter dealing with chakras. When you mention feeling the flow of energy from front to back in the funnel vortex, do you mean: a.) up the belly, through the center of the body, then down the back along or behind the spine; or, b.) a circular motion starting at the front, moving left (or right), to the back, then to the right (or left) back to the front?

Your description of the chakras is frankly the clearest I’ve ever encountered, and I sincerely thank you for that! Most other books simply describe the chakras as spinning disks, but never mention if the are horizontal or vertical. I have a much clearer visualization now, which is most helpful. I look forward to finishing this book!

Thank you in advance for your time and consideration on this matter.

Sincerely,
Maria E. Cooper

Aloha Maria,

Thank you so much for writing!

Great question, and I hope I can give you an answer that makes some sense šŸ™‚ talking about energy is an interesting thing, sometimes I think it would be great if I were an animation artist!

but since I am not here goes…

There are many ways energy flows, there is the way I talk about as “running energy” which is where the earth energy flows up your legs to the first chakra and down your grounding; then the cosmic energy which flow down from the cosmos into the top of your head, moves down your back channels on either side of your spine, flows also into the first chakra where it blends with some of your earth energy and then flows up the front channels of the body (that run on either side of your chakras, up and out the top of your head) branching at your 5th chakra and flowing down your arms and out your hands (becoming your healing and creative energy)..

Ok so once you have that happening you already have this flow going, and really once you have it going it is more of a general flow up the whole front of your body since the front channels are actually really close together, which means if you use your hands to feel it, and move it up the front of your body, you won’t feel two separate flows of energy you will just feel one even though there is more than “one” front channel.

So once that flow is going you can just move it/see it/feel it/know it (which ever one works best for you) and allow some of that energy, as it is flowing up and out the top of your head, to move from that flow into the front of whichever chakra you want it to flow into and let it fill the chakra up and let it simply flow out the back of the chakra where it will flow back into the rest of the energy that is already moving and find it’s way to your grounding.

The thing is, remember that you as Spirit actually already know all of this and so we don’t even have to think as much about directing it as we sometimes think. You can if you wish just get the energy flowing and then have the idea that the energy is flowing through the chakra and then flowing out the back and the energy will do it on it’s own. Having conscious awareness is so great, and enhances all of this, but at the same time it’s good to remember that there is that within you that knows all of this on some level and has been running your energy since you were born, and there can be relaxation in the midst of all of this too, it’s a balance.

There are also other aspects of running energy that we are also already doing but are not conscious of yet, and as we tune into our own energy we will begin noticing them, and I will also write more about them as I think of them too šŸ™‚

Please let me know if this helps at all, and also if it does I would like to get permission to post your question and my answer on my blog https://consciousmetamorphosis.com// so that in case anyone else has this question they can benefit from your asking it. I can just use your first name if you like or no name at all, just let me know.

Blessings and tons of aloha to you!!!
Erika

Aloha, Erika!

Yes, your response absolutely helped me immensely! I would be more than happy for you to post this on your blog, and I don’t mind if you use any part, or all, of my name.

I look forward to speaking with you again in the future, as well as reading your other work.

Blessed be & Aloha!
Maria

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Subtle energy grid and hubs of thought

Erika Ginnis

Information that I got last week when doing some energy reading (sometimes it feels like I get information on a “carrier wave” as I am working with someone).

I saw once again an energy grid, this time with little nodes, or nodules; and in the same way that copper wires are used for transmitting electrons, there are these “thought lines” – not cords, but rather streams of energy;Ā  more akin to packets for a data stream for a computer. These Thought lines/power lines connect the hubs and transmit energy and information between them; they are as real as the copper wires, just less physical, made of more subtle energy; are able to carry vast amounts of information almost instantly.

There is an exchange of information sometimes that happens from being inĀ a specific place physically – or it can happen between two nodes (and when I say nodes I really mean individuals) via any type of communication, even phone calls. So sometimes your desire/need to go somewhere is not just about the mundane reason; job, vacation, family…it’s about making a connection; bringing a “packet of energy” to a specific place and downloading it, or retrieving one to bring back with you to another “hub”. This is all on purpose, but the volition comes from a “higher” level of our own consciousness than we might be aware of at the time.

It is essentially like setting up a network.

(note to self regarding a reading I received from a woman recently where I was told to “go get your molecules out there” meaning get out of my house and go out to different places, new places I hadn’t been before so that I could get my vibration out in the world… I was curious about that, but in this context it makes a little more sense.)

It looks like setting up a data net, or a neural network –Ā  but of energy, planetary in nature. Perhaps this has gone on all along and it is just now becoming obvious (?); or perhaps it’s a newly evolving aspect of ourselves as a global expression of consciousness. The electronics that we use these days (social networking etc.) certainly mimic this, and may even enhance it, but it isn’t about the electronics – it starts in consciousness and moves into manifestation from there.

This is related to this global energetic grid that keeps showing up on an non-physical level. One of the images I got was the visual of synapses in the brain and the idea of our individual point of consciousnessĀ  each being like a neuron (?) in this larger mental architecture; and that in the same way a child develops neural pathways and connections as it matures, we as a global consciousness are doing something similar, there is some maturing process that we are in; moving toward greater connectivity and information transmission within “ourselves” as a larger entity.

It also occurred to me that this exchange via the hubs and the thought lines, was important cool stuff and needed to be happening for our evolution; that as we each become more focused and generate more “umph” (the technical term!) that we have a greater ability to transmit and carry energy and information to where it needs to go, and also more hmmmm dare I say responsibility? Perhaps rather than responsibility I will say that what we each gain as a result of this exchange is personally valuable and creates a sense of inner wellbeing and satisfaction, and avoiding it can feel less good. Plus it doesn’t require effort, it only requires presence. Most of this is all “running in the background” so to speak (borrowing another computer term), so it isn’t “more work” to do, it kind of just happens.

Food for thought. I am making a point to start writing this stuff down as I get it, make notes etc. So I can go back to it later and retrieve it, more has been coming in via dreams as well and I will have to go back and grab some of that information as well, but for now I wanted to include this.Ā  The info was current as of this weekend, and it’s always interesting to me what I get.Ā  It fades some with time even with the notes, but this is better than letting it just float away.

Aloha and Blessings,

~Erika

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Truth in advertising; unedited evolution ~ Erika Ginnis

Erika Ginnis

Faith and Trust

Something I did the other day, maybe two days ago. Was to take my iPhone (which I use way more than I ever thought I would) and start a new note. Not a big deal right? Well maybe, but it was really helpful to me at least the evening I did it because I started a list of things that have gone well for me.

Let me back up a bit and let you know why I was doing that in the first place…Sometimes I am not sure what to share on my blog. I have three all together (but of course, if one is good m-u-s-t add MORE) and this one is really dedicated to the process of evolution that I believe we are all hip deep in, on this lovely blue planet here at the beginning of the 21st Century.

I started this blog because I had ideas and visions and experiences that I thought might be of use to other people out there who may be having something similar happening to them in the midst of all this change. Being a metaphysical teacher and counselor, it kind of made sense to me. I am still very much in line with that intention. The thing is, I find that I sometimes edit my own experience because I want to be a place of inspiration rather than adding to the angst.

This is good in theory, but more difficult in practice, because I find I can be in such an “editing” mode that I don’t write as often as I might, or share all that I might. The thing is, there are most likely not that many people reading this anyway, so why all the self-critique? Part of it is just old habits, part of it is training, part is wanting to show up differently in various aspects of my life. What is occurring to me however, is that I often get so much value out of the experience of others as I hear their stories; what makes me think that only the “cream” of my experience will be of use to someone else? This is a process of shifting and change we are all involved in and sometimes it isn’t all neat and tidy.

If all I show is the neat and tidy aspects of what is going on, what kind of message does that give? And once again I have to ask who am I really writing for? If I am writing for my self and my own evolution then I need to be willing to process all that I am really processing, not just what I judge as being helpful to someone else; if I am writing for other people (and that gets sticky all on its own) then what makes me think that they are not going to relate to what ever it is that is up for me in my life at that moment? Law of attraction being what it is, wouldn’t it follow that whoever finds me on a given day will be drawn there simply by the vibrations of the thoughts and words that I am pondering, and wouldn’t that mean it is perfect all along?

Thoughts are like stars, they have their own gravity and collect their own solar system around them.

I am the creator of these thoughts, or perhaps I am the medium through which they come into this reality. Regardless I want to be in a place to respect that creative process and also revel in it; let my thoughts and ideas and observations come up from inside of me and spread out in all directions gathering what they will. I want to trust that whoever is reading, is here for some good of their own, and whatever I am sharing is going add to it in some fashion.

So back to the other evening…I am juggling a lot of emotional things these days. I have lost a parent recently; and by lost meaning their energy is still around but their body is not. I have another parent who is living in a “memory care” unit of a lovely facility, but which costs a fair bit to maintain. I have someone who I am technically married to who no longer lives with me and I am completely unsure about which direction that relationship should or will go; and while I attract a lot of dollars, I have also created a series of situations where what was promised did not actually arrive.

I understand this is my creation; it doesn’t always help to know that (especially if I use it to beat myself up) and it isn’t the bit of information that will help change it. How often do we rack our brains trying to find the place that originated the issue in the first place? What was I thinking, why did I attract that? Why am I still dealing with “..fill in the blank..”?

We are all in the process of sifting through the stuff that needs to change; it is happening on a personal level; a governmental level; an environmental level; and a consciousness level. These shifts can be enormous or tiny; we are all part of this larger moving energy and the whole thing is evolving is leaps and bounds. I am sure you have noticed!

This is a lot to chew on, and I sometimes let it all go, and dive into the deep of me. Then there are times where the things of the day require my attention; I must attend to the various details which are mine to do. I find myself scared, or hurt, or angry. I find myself tempted to stay in those places longer than it is prudent for my own peace of mind.

I generally don’t stay there too long, it’s just much to uncomfortable; but I would be lying if I said I was never there, because I am, and I do feel those things.

I have been working with some of that this last week, after one of my bills (the one for my Mom) went up, while one particular income stream went way down (eek). This brought up fear, and anger and hurt all at the same time. In the midst of all of this I found myself thinking about the many many times (in the past) that amazing answers, and ideas, and opportunities, and even cash, came my way to solve my “dilema du jour”.

So I thought maybe I should write some of that down, remind myself about it, see if I am just making that up or if it really has happened that way. I starting with the note screen on my phone and now it is so long it takes at least 10 scrolls (with my finger) to get to the end; even writing this I have added two more.

I am writing about this because it is what is going on with me. The list I made helped remind me of all the “out of the blue” things that have happened over and over again. This is important because those are the “solar systems” I want to populate.

I now find that I could probably use re-reading this list more than once. I am not sure how this next phase will right itself. However I have this blog, and since this is definitely “spiritual evolution on a personal level” this topic is totally applicable. And I will keep you (whoever you are) and me posted.

Aloha and Blessings,

Erika

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