Musings on coming out in the 70’s. I will miss you David Bowie. 

I remember striped glitter tube socks worn with platform shoes 6 big sparkly bracelets on each arm, walking arm in arm with a woman in pike place market not caring if people saw, even daring them to see. I remember my silver satin pants, the pink sequin shirt.
Multicolored hair, six inch platform boots, hanging on to one another as we traversed the cobblestones of Pioneer Square, so we didn’t fall.

Going to the 107 Club until 4am; The Trojan Shield for the drag shows, applied our red lipstick looking in the mirror at the end of that long single counter of the all night diner in-between.

Dancing at the Golden Crown, since I couldn’t get into the Silver Slipper (no fake ID, and that bar checked because it was all women), I don’t know if I ever made it in to that bar!
I remember the posters for the Double Header advertising Zee Whizz Kidz in their peacock capes. Glitter Rock and Gay bars. My life every weekend hitchhiking to Seattle after I came out in the 70’s.
And on my wall at home the open inside cover of Alladin Sane.

My fan girl crush and my hero, the first person who I ever knew was bisexual other than me.

I would gaze at your image. Androgynous and beautiful, otherworldly and amazing. You represented so much to me, gave me courage in your visibility to ask the hard question of myself and finally find the answer at such a young age; as I bounced back and forth between acceptance and terror.

There you were giving it all a name just by being, making it shiny and worthwhile giving me something to lean against and point to, a belonging.

You moved through the years with me, always there to check in with on the state of music and culture. Reminding me of where I came from.

There aren’t many of us left from my days on Occidental, it’s all changed.

I will always love you, and today it feels like I have lost a part of myself, makes my journey from that teenage girl to the woman no one would recognize as being the same if seen from a distance, (age making its alterations) all that more real.

And I wonder who I am, who I have become; once again asking the hard questions with you as my guide even now…am I being true to my own muse as you were so very true to yours? No. I think perhaps not. And then … what do I want to do about it.

RIP my lovely starlit man. Keep me company in spirit until I too find my way to where you have gone.

Aloha and Blessings,

Erika

Friday the 13th 2015 Healing energy for Paris and the world; bring on the gold energy.

Given recent events.

The world can use some light and healing.
For those of you who want a guided way to send energy to those in need, in Paris and the world. Here is my free Gold Ribbon Heal Your World meditation, I did in conjunction with Reiki Harpist Cymber Lily Quinn.

Sound cloud link here

Here is another link, to the same meditation, this to Cymber’s page.

guided healing meditation

 


For those who want the written version.

Meditation:

You can do this in a group or by yourself. If you are in a group I would suggest sitting in a circle and working with the energy inside of the circle.

If you are working “by yourself” (and I put that in quotes because it really just means that we are the only one physically present when we are working; we are never really alone on a spiritual level) my suggestion is to sit in a comfortable chair (like you would when you are meditating in general) imagine that you are joined in a circle by your “spiritual entourage”, meaning your guides, or your ancestors, or the Fairies of the Universe, or whomever you would want to ask you to join in for some energetic enhancement on a planetary level.

Ground and center and possibly create and destroy some roses (if you aren’t familiar with this I have included links)

Get your own energy running and find your own peaceful centered place. Breathe and relax and know that all is well and that you are adding to energy that is already flowing and in motion for the Greater Yet to be.

  • Close your eyes and imagine/create/be aware of  a warm Gold energy. This is an angelic energy, a wonderful neutral cleansing balancing vibration that is associated with the experience of the emergence of our inner Divinity higher self in harmony with physical reality.
  • Let a column of this gold vibration flow from infinity into and through the planet until it reaches the center of the earth; imagine it as a waterfall of bright energy flowing from far above you into the center of the circle you have created and flowing down into the planet.
  • Sit along side of this energy and bask in its warmth and light that radiates outward. Let this energy heal, cleanse, balance you and your life and your circle and the planet. Let it enhance the natural goodness which is already here and eternally present.

Breath and ground and observe the flow of energy with your minds eye, or with your awareness.

  • Let the golden energy flow through the sun and through Venus and through the Earth; allow it to cleanse and balance all the energies as they flow from the galactic center to our lovely little home. Let it assist with the harmonic comfortable balance of spirit and matter.
  • Next allow ribbons of this energy to venture out from the main flow. Let these ribbons of gold energy flow out to anywhere on the planet where they are needed. You don’t have to know what or where, although you can certainly watch where they go if you wish.
  • Notice these ribbons of golden light as they flow to heal any hurts or pain,
  • cleanse any toxins,
  • comfort those that are alone or afraid,
  • flow and encourage people,
  • aid in their alignment with their highest best natures,
  • flow to the oceans and the mountains.
  • You do not have to direct the ribbons, simple know that there is what which knows what to do and how to do it, and allow that to move within the gold energy as is flows to where it is needed.
  • BTW it is completely appropriate to allow one of the ribbons to flow to you. 🙂 There is an unending supply of this loving warm golden light.

Let yourself (if you wish) ask this energy of enlightenment if there is any information that would be useful to you personally for your own unfoldment. Be still and let the information come to you in whatever way you like; images, words, pictures, feelings.

Let this process unfold as it needs to; and at some point you will feel it’s completion.  Let the ribbons join the main flow. breath and release energy down your grounding.

Thank the energy and thank your guidance. Know that you have done a great service to the planet and to your own life. Know that you do make a difference. You rock. 🙂

  • let this energy flow into the earth and release it, so that the column is no longer there. Take time and ground and release excess energy keeping anything you need for yourself and your body.
  • bend forward and release energy from your head and shoulders into the earth; come back up when you are ready. Make some notes if it feels good to do so, so you can remember your experience.

Thank yourself for taking the time to do this. And please also accept my thanks in advance. You are a Divine spark of the All that Is. I honor your light.

Bright Blessings and Aloha,

Erika
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Full blood moon in Aries total lunar eclipse Sept 27, 2015

astrological weatherAloha,

check out this great info on the total lunar eclipse.

http://www.mysticmamma.com/full-moon-in-aries-blood-moon-total-lunar-eclipse-sept-27th-2015/

“This month’s Aries Full Moon is very powerful, so don’t be surprised by the surprises that come your way.
“It’s the Harvest Moon, the Full Moon closest to the Autumn Equinox. It is the 4th consecutive Blood Moon Total Lunar Eclipse in the last two years, a rare occurrence called a tetrad.

“It is also the second and most powerful Super Moon this year, when the Moon comes the closest to Earth in its elliptical orbit—as well as closely aligning with the Lunar Nodes. This means the Moon will look BIG!
“So this lunar eclipse will create extra strong tides and energy flows, disrupting sleep and energy levels.

“Added to this, when eclipses occur near the equinoxes, a time when the Earth’s magnetic field decreases, they aid us in making rapid changes, releasing old energy patterns so there’s energy available to create new forms.
“Needless to say, the energies will be intense. Give these energies a week or so to calm down before you try to integrate what you’ve learned…”

“All four Eclipses occurred in the signs of Aries and Libra because the Lunar Nodes have been moving through these signs for the past year and half. The Lunar Nodes point to a collective lesson we all have to work through, old patterns to be dropped and new lessons to be learned.

“With the South Node in Aries, we’ve been called on to let go of our old behavior patterns of reacting to situations with anger, domination and aggression, as well as our need to ‘go it alone’.
“The Libra North Node calls us to learn cooperation, diplomacy and partnership equality…”

“With this last Aries Blood Moon Total Lunar Eclipse, it’s time tointegrate the endings, awakenings, transformations and death and rebirth experiences related to the balance of Self and Other, completing our initiation into a more balanced exchange between the masculine and feminine energies of life as well as between women and men.”

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Pluto square Uranus March 16 2015; Spring Is Coming…

weatherJust a reminder, in case you forgot why things are so very intense again.

March 16, 2015 – Uranus 15 Aries 18, square Pluto 15 Capricorn 18

Pluto

“lord of the underworld/soul level change” in the sign of Capricorn “status quo/discipline/rules time & space and structure” is squaring Uranus “the awakener/revolution, eccentric electric lightening strike changes” in the sign of Aries “the Ram, charging forward, the warrior, impulsive, leap then look, initiator”.

Astrological weather…

7 direct squares over three years.

We are coming up on the 7th of the squares.
Mars, planet of initiation and war will also be in the mix; plus an eclipse at the karmic 29th degree of Pisces four days later on the 20th right in time for Spring Equinox.

The karmic (or The Anaretic Degree) is the last degree of a sign (each sign or house goes from 0-29 degrees) and signifies a lesson that one is very close to mastering.

This is the most strong-willed, positive, dedicated, humanitarian degree for Pisces.

In addition in this case 29 degrees Pisces is also the moment right before Spring.

So the evolutionary/revolutionary energy of the square, the forward motion of Mars in Aries, and the eclipse can be seen to be colored by the spiritually positioned Piscean energy in that eclipse, that breath before the new, into the seeding of Spring.

 

star burst

Power and control, soul evolution, status quo vs sudden changes, call to revolution and upheaval, conflict, resolution, need for new perspectives…and the connection to a higher octave of all of it.

Alrighty then…nothing to see here move along. 🙂

How have you been feeling? Any changes in your life? Where are things for you now since 2012, with 6 of the 7 completed?

The landscape of my life has certainly changed. Some major players have left the stage, some new characters and entirely new chapters have been added. Theme and variation. I am curious how the rest of 2015 will play out. I keep thinking of moving to a different country, seriously…not out of wanting to leave here (why leave Hawaii??) but because I keep hearing a call.

I’m a little crispy around the edges but even so I don’t think I’m done cooking yet. Maybe it’s time to turn the heat down some, let me simmer in luxurious sweet juices.

 

As always Remember to breathe.


The 7 transits.


  1. June 24, 2012 – Uranus 8 Aries 23, Pluto 8 Capricorn 23 R
  2. September 19, 2012 – Uranus 6 Aries 57 R, Pluto 6 Capricorn 57
  3. May 20, 2013 – Uranus 11 Aries 14, Pluto 11 Capricorn 14 R
  4. November 1, 2013 – Uranus 9 Aries 25 R, Pluto 9 Capricorn 25
  5. April 21, 2014 – Uranus 13 Aries 34, Pluto 13 Capricorn 34 R
  6. Dec 15, 2014 – Uranus 12 Aries 35 R, Pluto 12 Capricorn 35
  7.  March 16, 2015 – Uranus 15 Aries 18, Pluto 15 Capricorn 18

To go back and see when it was all starting…

Uranus and Pluto square September 2012

Here is a take on the current astrology that I enjoyed.
www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article 2015 year hope Jonathan Cainer year significant astrological events mean YOU.

Here is another cool resource.

Great 2015 calendar of transits


And in case you would like it again here is the (free) Gold Ribbon guided meditation; that place where you can bask in gold energy and heal yourself while you heal the world.


 

 

Aloha and Blessings,

Erika

Between one breath and the next.

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Just for a moment
Your heart brings tears to your eyes

Just for a moment
Everything comes together to a point.

As realities converge
You see them
Like pointed pieces of a puzzle,
Transparent arrowheads
Tips all touching, the trailing edges branching out infinitely

And you remember the illusion
Just for a moment you remember.
You can see past it,
behind it,
through it

And you remember
That time and space are not constants
Nothing is static
And everything is possible.

8-29-14
Erika Ginnis