Gratitude.

Gratitude.
There’s a part of my heart that never aged.

Kept apart from the rest of my life, observing events, but not touched.

In amber…glowing golden, kept with other treasures, and memories.

Forgotten like so many things, that will reemerge at some predestined time when all is added back to us once more.

There’s a part of my heart that is still young, that is fresh and new and in awe.

(I had felt I had lost so much of it when Bowie passed, and now I see that there may be more than I knew.)

In me it blooms. Today I am reminded it was never lost.

No matter what the mirror reflects. I know now that I am not so old as I thought, and will never truly be, no one is…

I know now why the old men sit and reminisce, playing games in the park. 

I am reminded and renewed by reconnections and memories, coming to it from another place, with more understanding, the kind that only comes with age. 

Blessed am I, by my past. By the tender group of souls I came here with, some of them have moved on, and some of them, gratefully, are traveling with me still.

-Erika Katherine Ginnis

4-12-16
 from my yard 
 

Musings on coming out in the 70’s. I will miss you David Bowie. 

I remember striped glitter tube socks worn with platform shoes 6 big sparkly bracelets on each arm, walking arm in arm with a woman in pike place market not caring if people saw, even daring them to see. I remember my silver satin pants, the pink sequin shirt.
Multicolored hair, six inch platform boots, hanging on to one another as we traversed the cobblestones of Pioneer Square, so we didn’t fall.

Going to the 107 Club until 4am; The Trojan Shield for the drag shows, applied our red lipstick looking in the mirror at the end of that long single counter of the all night diner in-between.

Dancing at the Golden Crown, since I couldn’t get into the Silver Slipper (no fake ID, and that bar checked because it was all women), I don’t know if I ever made it in to that bar!
I remember the posters for the Double Header advertising Zee Whizz Kidz in their peacock capes. Glitter Rock and Gay bars. My life every weekend hitchhiking to Seattle after I came out in the 70’s.
And on my wall at home the open inside cover of Alladin Sane.

My fan girl crush and my hero, the first person who I ever knew was bisexual other than me.

I would gaze at your image. Androgynous and beautiful, otherworldly and amazing. You represented so much to me, gave me courage in your visibility to ask the hard question of myself and finally find the answer at such a young age; as I bounced back and forth between acceptance and terror.

There you were giving it all a name just by being, making it shiny and worthwhile giving me something to lean against and point to, a belonging.

You moved through the years with me, always there to check in with on the state of music and culture. Reminding me of where I came from.

There aren’t many of us left from my days on Occidental, it’s all changed.

I will always love you, and today it feels like I have lost a part of myself, makes my journey from that teenage girl to the woman no one would recognize as being the same if seen from a distance, (age making its alterations) all that more real.

And I wonder who I am, who I have become; once again asking the hard questions with you as my guide even now…am I being true to my own muse as you were so very true to yours? No. I think perhaps not. And then … what do I want to do about it.

RIP my lovely starlit man. Keep me company in spirit until I too find my way to where you have gone.

Aloha and Blessings,

Erika

Between one breath and the next.

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Just for a moment
Your heart brings tears to your eyes

Just for a moment
Everything comes together to a point.

As realities converge
You see them
Like pointed pieces of a puzzle,
Transparent arrowheads
Tips all touching, the trailing edges branching out infinitely

And you remember the illusion
Just for a moment you remember.
You can see past it,
behind it,
through it

And you remember
That time and space are not constants
Nothing is static
And everything is possible.

8-29-14
Erika Ginnis

 

 

 

 

Chiron in Pisces and the upcoming September Pisces full moon 2014

 

 


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I was researching Chiron in Pisces tonight. I was doing this for a couple of reasons. One is that Chiron is currently in Pisces; it has been for a while now, this is interacting once again with our seemingly ever present Uranus-Pluto square, and creating levels of personal and planetary growth that I sometimes wonder how to make it through!

The other reason is that I also have my sun in Pisces and so I have been experiencing Chiron conjunct my sun in Pisces on and off for a (seems like a l-o-n-g) while now and it’s non-trivial to say the least.

The last reason may seem funny but I’m nothing if not a little odd. 🙂

I rescued a sick and soaking wet little abandoned kitten (now named Freddie Mercury) a couple months ago from the jungle (literal jungle as I live in rural Hawaii) and realized based on his age that he was born most likely the week of my birthday this year and therefore is not only a Pisces but was born with Chiron in Pisces conjunct both my Chiron and my sun. (He’s much healthier and much bigger than when I found him.)

Hence the research.

 


So it’s been a wild ride yes?

We are just starting to recover from our recent Hurricane in my corner of the world, and the rest of the planet seems to be in the throes of some amazing birth contractions; many seem very painful, not just to the people directly involved but to all of us as we feel these deep wounds being accessed.

Chiron is the wounded healer and Pisces is all about oneness so we are going to feel these things much more acutely than we might have in the past.

How have you been doing?

Are you feeling any pain and fear from places outside of yourself?

If so you can use this awareness to both release all that is not your own energy (to keep you sane) while at the same time sending loving kindness and healing energy to all the places in your life or the lives of others of which you may be keenly aware.

How about from inside of yourself?

That one will be easier if you let go of everything else first of course; even then it may still be felt as a deep longing and calling for healing internally that can not be easily denied.

One way to address this is to reimagine your concept of God/Goddess/The Universe/The Most High

Do you have a concept of God that is big enough to handle all the intense paradox involved in the incredible evolving human spirit of joy; while at the same time holding you up amidst the incredible pain and sadness that is playing out across our experience?

I ask these questions because it’s been part of my path of late, I am definitely in a process of updating my concept of God(s). I need to, because my concept will limit my experience if it isn’t big enough.

I have updated my concept of God several times in my life, always with extraordinary results. God is always going to be bigger than my concept and yet it is still a powerful process to undertake.

I can sometimes get too intellectual about God, too conceptual and not intimate enough. I’m officially going for the intimacy.

I invite you to join me in courting the Divine  (or the Beloved or dear Friend as Hafiz or Rumi would say).

All the Hemispheres

Leave the familiar for a while.
Let your senses and bodies stretch out

Like a welcomed season
Onto the meadows and shores and hills.

Open up to the Roof.
Make a new water-mark on your excitement
And love.

Like a blooming night flower,
Bestow your vital fragrance of happiness
And giving
Upon our intimate assembly.

Change rooms in your mind for a day.

All the hemispheres in existence
Lie beside an equator
In your heart.

Greet Yourself
In your thousand other forms
As you mount the hidden tide and travel
Back home.

All the hemispheres in heaven
Are sitting around a fire
Chatting

While stitching themselves together
Into the Great Circle inside of
You.

— Hafiz

From: ‘The Subject Tonight is Love’
Translated by Daniel Ladinsky

From this site
http://peacefulrivers.homestead.com/Hafiz.html


Seek and find a large grand all encompassing God/dess that is bigger than anything in your path; One who can truly give wise counsel and keep you aloft in a storm.

The upcoming new full moon in September will also be in Pisces which means it will be conjunct Chiron in Pisces. This is the “third time is a charm” last “Supermoon” of the year.

Chiron in Pisces conjunct Full moon in Pisces (September 8th in Hawaii, September 9th in the UK) is a perfect time to address these times and trials both personal and global with the support and backing of profound Universal Love, and also an energized Divine Feminine principle (strongly emphasized based on some of the other more esoteric astrology coming into play).

 

 

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Returning to my earlier comments, here is a link to a really compelling article I ran across that talks about the concepts regarding the last time Chiron was in Pisces in the 60’s.

http://www.ericfrancis.com/planetwaves/sixties3_chipisces.html

There are some great insights in the article and I especially liked some of the comments about the Beatles, near the end of the article.

And as always if you want healing or counseling support in your journey please give me a call or email me to set up an appointment, or if you prefer you can download and use my MP3’s on grounding, centering, and transformation to help you navigate the twists and turns of these days.

Be well.
Namaste’

Blessed be and Aloha,
Erika

Affirmative prayer for prosperity for you to use and enjoy.

Photo credit NASA
Photo credit NASA

As I breathe, I bring my attention to the One. The One Love, the One Mind, the One Presence; the overarching Goodness in which everything rests and from which everything springs. This One is ever Creative, ever Loving, ever moving joyously into abundant new forms. It is made manifest as all the planets and the galaxies; as the space between stars; the supernovas and the black holes; all the hidden worlds within our very cells.

This Divine Presence, is the ever expanding Universe, and more. It Is every supply and demand, It encompasses all dichotomies, It Is the answer to all seeking and to every request. It Is bigger and vaster than I can fully comprehend, and yet It Is also as sweet and familiar and close as my most treasured friend or my very breath.

Knowing this Truth, I can relax into the certainty that this same energy and power that moves the planets in their orbits, is everywhere present and therefore active in Its expression of Goodness and Abundance; as my work, and my life, and my health, and my home, and my finances, and my community. It knows and loves me constantly and continually; and I know right here and right now that this Love expresses as the highest octave of all I desire. I am this Love, I am this expression and so as I speak my word of power it ripples across the fabric of being and demonstrates instantly as my consciousness and in perfect timing in the body of my affairs.

Pahoa orchid from my yard
Photo credit. Erika Ginnis www.inbreath.com

I enjoy wonderful relationships and fabulous projects, I revel in the abundance and ease in my finances and in my world. Dollars flow to me and my community, opportunities abound, joy happens, love and life sparkle with renewed splendor. I truly know Life is Good. I am Good. All is well.

I find myself saying thank you, thank you, thank you, as a silent prayer throughout my day. I am so grateful for all this richness and beauty, for the deep knowing of the Truth of my Worth. I am so thankful for all the good I witness around me. For all my blessings. Thank you God! Thank you Universe!

I release all of these words and emotions and images into the law which only ever says yes, and therefore I rest in calm certainty that this returns to me clothed in manifestation as I know it is already done. And So It Is!

Rev. Erika Ginnis HPS
Aloha
5-21-14